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How My Bold Mom Taught Me to Face Fear & Embrace Reality
"We are more often frightened than hurt; and we suffer more from imagination than from reality." - Seneca
I remember running over the threshold of my playhouse when I was 7-years-old. As my right foot landed on the wooden floor, my childhood friend gave me a playful shove. I lost my balance and fell forward.
Sitting up-side-down was a child-sized ironing board. There was a metal prong exposed. The force of my leg landing on top of it led to the prong slicing into my skin.
Being that I was horrified of anything having to do with hospitals, doctors, and blood from the time I can remember, I nearly had a panic attack as I stood to my feet.
I ran to my Mom's room, blood gushing down my leg.
It was obvious I had to have stitches - so Mom gave me a towel and had me apply pressure to the wound -- then quickly ushered my sobbing being down to the car.
"Mom, I'm not going to have to have stitches, am I?"
The closer we got to Dr. Slayback's office, the more freaked out I became.
"Jennifer, you may have to and it's going to be okay," she tried to reassure me.
My 7-year-old brain was swimming in fear. I had never had stitches and was sure I wasn't going to make it through the procedure.
"Mom, maybe I'm not going to have to have them. Maybe he can just tape it together."
I imagined with horror that he'd stick a needle into my skin and was certain it would be the death of me.
We entered Dr. Slayback's office and he stood there to greet us. He had been a friend of my mom and dad before I was ever conceived.
"Dr. Slayback, I think you can just tape my leg together and I'll be fine. Just please tape it."
He took one look at it and shook his head.
"Jennifer, I'm going to have to give you stitches. There's no other way."
I did everything I could not to cry my eyes out. By that time my pride had kicked in -- I didn't want him to see that I was terrified and weak.
"Okay, Jen. Let's get this started," he said.
I was about to lose it and decided to stall.
"Mom, I need to go to the bathroom. Can you come with me?"
She followed as I limped along.
I sat on the toilet - my legs dangling a couple feet from the ground. Tears welled up in my eyes.
"Mom, I'm scared." She took her fingers and brushed my bangs out of my teary eyes.
"Will you pray with me Mom?"
I held her hand and she asked the universe to protect me. To give me strength.
"It's all going to be okay, Jen. You're such a brave girl."
There was something about Mom that always guided me to a higher state of mind and sense of peace. She was always giving me lessons about using "mind over matter" and her strength dove right into my bones.
When I was calm and ready, she walked me back to where the procedure was going to take place. I leaned back and held her hand in a death grip. Dr. Slayback brought out what seemed to me a monstrous needle. I began to panic inside and did my best to hide it.
"Just close your eyes," Mom suggested. I leaned back and followed her instructions.
Dr. Slayback waited for a bit as the numbing medication took effect.
"Alight, I'm going to start. You're being really brave Jenny," he said.
I asked to see the needle he was going to use to sew my leg up. He held it up for me to see.
"Is it going to hurt?" I was on the verge of panic again.
"No, not at all."
I closed my eyes and gripped Mom's hand again.
A minute or two went by.
"Are you going to start?" I asked.
"I've already started," was Dr. Slayback's reply.
I was shocked at the fact that I didn't feel anything at all. I opened my eyes to see what he was doing.
Then something really strange happened. I became fascinated by what was going on. I sat up and was transfixed -- then watched as he slipped the needle from one side of my wound to the other.
Mom let go of my hand and stood back. I'm pretty sure she was amazed at my newfound strength.
When it was over, we headed out to the car.
"Jen, I am so proud of you. You did such an amazing job in there. You nearly watched the whole thing!"
I remember feeling a new sense of freedom - having faced one of my biggest fears.
As I read the quote, "We are more often frightened than hurt; and we suffer more from imagination than from reality," this morning -- my childhood experience with stitches emerged from my memory bank.
Our minds are often so filled with fears that are never realized. We fret for hours, days, weeks, months, and even years about things that never happen.
My mom use to drill the concept of "buying trouble" into my mind. "Jen, the more you think about something and fear it, the more likely it may happen," she'd explain. "Your thoughts affect your actions and then there's no turning back."
Even up to the last days of her life during her cancer battle, she'd school me on this concept.
For example, I'd walk into the room and she'd be so quiet. My imagination would make me believe she wasn't breathing anymore. Her eyes would snap open and she'd say something sarcastic.
"I'm not dead, Jen! I'm perfectly fine!"
Her reactions were strangely funny, and we'd both giggle a bit. Then she'd give me a lecture about not being so scared of what was going on in her body.
"What are you going to do when I'm gone? You'd better get your head screwed on straight."
She was right.
As the weeks went by during her sickness, I was increasingly infused with the strength I needed to get through it all. Things got tougher for her. Sometimes she'd panic and ask for me to pray with her -- just as she did during my first bout with stitches.
"What am I going to do, Jen?" she asked me one night.
She needed for me to be strong, and all I wanted to do was weep.
(It makes me wonder... did she feel like weeping when as a child I came running to her with my leg split open? Did she want to weep when I asked her to pray with me?)
I stared back at her and did everything I could to assure her that she'd be okay. Her soul was going to be fine.
"Mom, you are such a special human being. Everything is going to be okay."
I stroked her head and tried to calm her.
All I know at this point is that each day, each moment is a new opportunity to look my fears in the eyes and not be overtaken by uncertainty.
"Don't buy trouble"... I try to use my Mom's words and wisdom to fight my own invisible dragons -- those fears that will probably never become a reality.
It's all in the here and now. The real question I need to be asking myself is what can I do in this moment to live and breathe my full potential. How do I use my mind and my talents that will lead to a better and more beautiful future?
There is nothing to be gained by living in fear - by being frozen in "what ifs" and unfounded fears.
I want to dig in and reconnect with the kid I was when I learned that stitches weren't going to kill me. And know that living within me is the strength of my mom whispering softly, "you're so brave Jen. Everything is going to be okay."
The Truth About Tears, Moms and Inner Strength
A few nights ago, I was driving in the dark of night. You know that feeling when you're a bit vulnerable in life and you just want to call your mom?
Well, that's what happened as I barreled down the 5 Freeway on the way to dinner.
I was thinking about next steps in life, and for a moment I just wanted to connect with her. For her to answer my phone call. To hear her voice.
Numerous memories of her looking at me with supreme love converged into a big wave of energy that swept through my body.
"Jen, you have such a special heart," she told me way too many times to count.
She had this way of making me believe that I was on this planet for a reason. In my darkest of nights after my father died, she'd whisper in my ear about how my heartbreak would lead to my becoming a strong and beautiful woman.
It was hard for the 10-year-old me to reckon with how my dad could be so very alive one moment and gone the next.
No matter how old you get, when you lose someone that you love with all of your heart -- you keep waiting for them to walk through the door.
Just days ago, I was working on a storage unit containing the remnants of Mom's house. I opened boxes that contained photos that she'd carefully organized -- with labels like "Jen's School Photos," "Lake Havasu," "Europe" .... there were arts and crafts made by me and my siblings as kids. And there are antiques that she carefully curated over the years.
When surrounded by these things, my imagination makes me believe for brief moments in time that she'll appear.
People often tell me that she can hear me, she can see me, but when I find myself wanting to hear her voice, or have her tickle my arms, or listen (in a way only she could) it surely doesn't feel that way.
As I drove the other night, I let every tear out that I was holding back.
"Oh, my Mom ... I really wish I could talk to you. I wish I could be near you."
If you've lost a parent or a friend, I just want you to know that we all have these moments. When we have to let the floodgates open and cry out to the heavens. It doesn't mean we're weak or that we don't have faith. It just means that deep within our beings we're still connected to those we've lost. Their souls have taken root in the deepest part of who we are.
If we didn't feel -- if we didn't reach out for them in the darkness of the night or even under the blazing sun during the day -- we wouldn't be the magnificent creatures that we are.
Let the torrential downpour of your tears cover your face and drift down toward your toes.
When I got to my destination the other night, my eyes were a bit puffy. I confessed to one of my best friends that I had cried my eyes out for a bit.
She gave me a massive hug, and said "Oh, Jenny, I love you."
It wasn't the hug of my mother, but of someone who gets it and who gets me.
More times than not, I hold it all in. I think I need to be strong for those around me. But more and more I'm realizing how important it is to share. To let my guard down.
The release of emotions - the willingness to be open and real - these are the things that make our bones stronger and our roots deeper. These are the things that are going to allow for us to move forward and breathe life into moment.
When I cried out for my mom that night, there was no answer from the heavens. But from within my soul, there bubbled up the love that Mom planted in me. It's there. It's real. If I can only dare myself to be silent and feel, she's always whispering... always nurturing... always giving.
She's me and I'm her. And so I go today with purpose and with kindness - Dignity too - to fulfill my purpose on Planet Earth. Whatever it may be as life ebbs and flows.
Musings By My Writing Mentor and a Tobacco Vendor Turned Spiritual Genius
My writing mentor Rob had a pension for passing along his favorite books. I'd show up for weekly writing meetings, and more often than not he'd present me with one wrapped in beautiful paper.
Sometimes the books were brand new. Other times they were used classics that he'd pull from his own collection (I liked those the most).
Inside each cover, he'd write a note in his clean, clear script (ALL-CAPS, of course).
JUNE 25, 2014
TO JEN,
HERE IS A CLASSIC ADVAITA TEXT BY ONE OF THE GREAT SPIRITUAL TEACHERS, THE TOBACCO VENDOR BY THE SIDE OF THE ROAD TURNED SPIRITUAL GENIUS!
LOVE,
ROB
I recently opened this particular book and randomly turned to a page that read:
"Absolute perfection is here and now, not in some future, near or far. The secret is in action -- here and now. It is your behavior that blinds you to yourself. Disregard whatever you think yourself to be and act as if you were absolutely perfect -- whatever your idea of perfection may be. All you need is courage."
It continued...
"All you need you have. Use it. Behave as best you know, do what you think you should. Don't be afraid of mistakes; you can always correct them, only intentions matter. The shape things take is not within your power; the motives of your actions are."

We use to talk about this a lot, Rob and I. How we human beings are such pros at clouding up our worlds with our complicated brains.
"Jen, everything is perfect," he'd reiterate time and time again. "It's all a choice. you just have to surrender. Your life is as simple as you make it."
I've thought long and hard about Rob's definition of surrender.
He defined it as allowing the heart to be your guide, rather than letting the ego run the show. "It's about the heart consciousness," he explained. "Everything good in this world comes from the heart. Of course you need your brain to function, but the with the heart as guide, the mind can make sound and just decisions. Heartfelt decisions make the world better for everyone."
---
I think back to when I was a little girl running barefoot and free. I'd climb trees, play imaginary baseball games, skateboard, create products and sell them to our neighbors. I let my imagination run wild. More often than not I'd sit in school and count down the minutes until I could return to adventures at home.
In those days, I'd end up with all sorts of scratches and battle wounds. A skateboarding adventure would leave me with bloody knees. A tree climbing expedition left a long scar on my left wrist. I tried to rescue a cat from its apparent homelessness and it scratched my ear into oblivion. I brought home a stray dog that I claimed as my own, and my parents about fell over when they saw it was covered in mange.
While sometimes my adventures were painful, they were magnificent and worth every moment. The view from the tree was worth the scratch, the thrill of flying down a hill on four wheels made the bloody knee a prized battle wound, and hugging that homeless cat for a few moments made my day. Not to mention the numerous doors closed in my face during my sales efforts, made the single dollar I earned from one willing client a prize.
In the case of the dog that I found, my Dad's first impulse was to head to the pound. But I fought with everything I had in my 7-year-old being to keep her. I made it clear that I wanted to protect and love her. I had been pleading for a pup for so long. I wasn't going to take no for an answer this time.
Dad saw my passion and it caught his attention.
He decided to work with me. So we headed to the vet and got some horrible smelling medication. Each day we'd combine it with water and scrub the pup down. As result of our efforts, she got better and better -- and loved me for it. Ruffles became my confidant and friend. Everywhere I went she'd follow.
I saved her -- she saved me. It was an affair of the heart.
"Only good things come from the heart," said Rob.
"All you need is courage," said the tobacco vendor turned spiritual genius.
---
If Rob were alive today, I think he'd tell me that it all begins now. Forget the past... let go of your hurts and fears. Begin living from the heart in this second. Keep it simple. Tap into the child within (it still exists) and be authentically you. Don't let the world make you into a scared, inspirationless adult. Don't be idle.
When faced with a tough moment, take a deep breath and make every effort to see things from a heartfelt perspective. This doesn't mean not standing up for ourselves and having healthy boundaries, but we must understand our motives.
For "only intentions matter" in the end.
Mom's Last Surgery & What It All Means Now
November 17, 2014 marked one of the strangest and toughest days for me and my family.
It all started around 4am, when my mom, sister, cousin, and I trekked to the Loma Linda Hospital to face the inevitable. Mom's endometrial tumor had returned in a monstrous form, and her surgeon was going to do his best to save her.
We pulled up to the curb in front of the hospital. I couldn't help but giggle as Mom climbed out of the car in her massive fur lined trench coat. She wore nothing but a semi-skimpy nightgown underneath, and her feet were protected by her flimsy house slippers.
While this was an unconventional way to show up at the hospital, she was still as regal and beautiful as ever.
We waited to be taken to the OR prep room and Mom was in pain. She'd sit for a few minutes and then slowly pull herself up to stand. The tumor pushed against her pelvis, making it nearly impossible to sit for any length of time. I could see the discomfort she felt in her brow -- it furrowed, she frowned.
"Mom, I just love your outfit," I said in an effort to make her smile. It worked for a few seconds.
"At least I'm warm. It's freezing in here. And by the way, if I don't make it out of here alive, I want you to bury me in this thing."
She was always cold, that feisty mother of ours.
Eventually we were led to a prep room, where various medical personnel hustled around in an attempt to get Mom's vital stats and info. The four of us tried our best to fit around her rickety hospital bed.
Mom was on fire with her quick wit, and I was filled with adrenaline -- wondering how this last ditch surgery was going to play out.
Before we knew it, they were ready to transport her to the OR.
"Anyone want to go with her?" asked the woman tasked with transporting her.
I headed out the automatic doors with them, and we began the trek. We passed a massive bank of windows. The early morning rays enveloped the hallway.
Mom looked outside and was awed by what she saw
"Oh, what a beautiful morning," she said.
Tears formed in my eyes as I looked outside. "It really is, Mom. It's so beautiful."
She always taught me to enjoy the simple joys of nature. It was so her to point out beauty, even when being wheeled into a terrifying surgery.
We were taken into another prep area. It was freezing cold and stark white. Mom asked for me to get her a pile of blankets. As she began to warm up, she voiced a thought that made my stomach drop.
"Jen, you know what scares me most? That they won't be able to take the tumor out. What if it's too big? What will I do then?"
I looked into her eyes and stroked her head. She was almost panicking. I tried my best to comfort and soothe her, as she did when I was a little girl.
"They'll get it Mom, they'll get it."
An anesthesiologist approached us with a massive needle to numb her from the waist down.
"Hold my hand," she sweetly asked.
The pinch was severe enough for her to shriek a bit. She squeezed my hand with everything she had in her -- or at least it felt that way.
Once the torture was over, her doctor walked up to the gurney and hugged us both.
"You're going to get it, right?" Mom asked.
He took her hand and looked at her endearingly. "We've got a good chance. I'm going to do my best. Gonna do my best for you."
Prior to her final departure to the OR, I said a short prayer with her. I thanked the universe for my beautiful, unconditional mom -- and asked for her to be given peace whatever the outcome.
---
The surgery was expected to last 12 or more hours.
"If we run into complications, we'll call you," her doctor had promised. In the meantime, I was getting texts from the OR as to how things were going.
Janine is now sleeping peacefully.
The area is being sanitized and surgery will begin shortly.
Janine is stable and everything is going well.
The doctor has opened the abdominal cavity and things are proceeding nicely.
A few more texts streamed in, but about an hour in they stopped.
About 20 minutes went by and there still wasn't any word.
My phone rang...
"Hi Jennifer, this is Dr. Gomez."
My heart began beating so fast that I thought it was going to explode.
"I'm sorry. We tried so hard, but the tumor is too large. It's connected to too many things. We have to close her up."
"That's it?" I asked. "What do we do?"
"Just enjoy her while she's here. Just love her."
"How long does she have?"
"I'd say two or three months. I'm so sorry."
I hung up and sobbed.
How was I supposed to deal with this? How was I going to tell Mom? How was I going to tell my siblings?
---
It had been about two hours since the doctor called. I was getting antsy as I waited for word that Mom was being transported from the recovery room.
The call finally came, but it wasn't quite what I expected.
"Hello?"
I assumed it would be a nurse.
"Jennifer... it's... Mom."
Her voice was faint and broken.
"Mom?"
"Yes, it's me. Ah... they couldn't get it."
I was shocked that she knew already.
"They told you!?"
I was upset that she was told when she was all alone.
"Yes, we have some things to talk about."
"Are you okay?"
Tears were flowing down my face again.
"Yes, I'm okay. I had... a feeling this was going to happen. Just come up to see me... please."
---
They say in life that things never happen the way you expect them to. I never in a million years thought my Mom would have cancer, let alone die from it. And once again, there was a massive twist to it all.
I had envisioned consoling her about her death sentence, yet she was more prepared to calm and protect me, her child.
It figures, though...
That's how heroes roll. Especially, Janine my ultimate hero.
---
We're nearing two years since her death - January 17, 2015. She lived exactly two months to the day that I received the call from Dr. Gomez.
What does it mean to me now?
It means everything, really.
I had a few horrible days recently -- in which I couldn't quite catch my bearings. I was tired, overworked, and feeling off.
Instead of giving myself a break for dealing with the pains and strangeness of spending my second Christmas and New Year without my Mom, I judged and pushed myself. I bought into the idea that I was weak and insecure, rather than admitting I was exhausted and overwhelmed.
I'm reminding myself today, that it's okay to feel and to hurt once in a while... and make mistakes. It's even okay if people around you don't get it.
While the pains of life inspire the ego to harden up, I want to continue to soften. To love. And forgive. Both myself and others.
Above all, I can't forget that my magnificent mother's blood rages within my veins. I want to share in her sense of wonder that was even alive and well as she was being carted off to surgery. Oh, to marvel at the rays of morning sun, rather than being blinded by the fear of the unknown.
---
When I walked into my Mom's room in the hospital that shitty day in November, my sister joined me. We were both nervous.
Mom saw us and held out her hand. I sat next to her and wrapped my arms around her.
We were entering a new era -- a scary one.
Mom continued to throw out silly jokes. My sister made sure Mom's breakfast was ordered for the next day.
And we were happy, just to have Mom for another moment.
How to Avoid the Shattering Effect of Loss -- Or Can You Really?
The world never seemed so quiet the day they took my Mom from her bed. I was downstairs as they carried her lifeless body down the stairs -- wrapped in a sheet. They placed her on a gurney by the fireplace.
I couldn't help but take a look as they situated her covered body and laid a corny fake rose over her stomach. The two young men tasked with taking Mom away stood quietly waiting for a signal from me to let them leave.
Panic ran through my body, knowing she'd never be home again.
They took her through the garage and placed her in a van. I could see the outline of her toes under the blanket.
They drove away.
Silence. The early morning was so silent.
Shattered.
That's how I felt. That's how my sister felt.
Inside the house, we were surrounded by objects we'd seen most of our lives. The things Mom had so carefully collected over the years were in their places. Her clothing still hung in the closet. The signs of her struggle with cancer remained -- the morphine, mouth swabs, and various comfort items kept by the bed.
"Where do we go from here," were the words that we couldn't say. They drifted through the early morning air.
---
I know that my story is no different from yours - or from someone you know. People die. Moms die.
“He said the world is filled with people who have suffered horribly and crawled away broken. They never reached catharsis; they just got shattered and stayed shattered,” writes Elizabeth Gilbert in a article entitled “Your Pain, Your Gain.”
After reading these words just a few minutes ago, I couldn't help but wonder if I'm one of those people. Of course, I want to say "Hell no. When I fall down, I get up and keep moving."
I want to be tough, and some of my questionable actions reveal my false sense of strength. It's easier to laugh it off when you want to cry your eyes out -- or pretend that you don't give a damn when your heart is broken.
But those moments creep in -- when the shit hits the fan and the broken pieces reveal themselves.
Shattered.
A perfect example is a handful of weeks ago when I dove for a ball during a softball game. My finger dislocated, and I'd never experienced so much pain. I tried to get help -- someone who could put it in place, but I was forced to do it myself. I almost fainted the moment it slipped back into position.
I did everything not to appear shattered. My teammates scurried around to help find ice and pain meds. I joked and did everything I could not to break down.
Once I collected myself and got into my car, I drove home and cried like a baby. I sobbed and sobbed.
Yes, my finger hurt so badly, but there was something even more devastating. This was one of the first times I couldn't call my Mom to tell her I was broken. More sobbing -- at one point I cried out to the universe and asked why I couldn't have my mom anymore.
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So what's the secret to not being irreversibly shattered? How can we keep from being shattered?
I'm realizing that there is no such fucking thing. From the time we come out of our mother's wombs, we are shattered.
It's just that for some reason we don't want to embrace that part of ourselves. We're so driven to "survive" that we create defenses that tend to shatter us into even more pieces.
It's obvious, there is no magic formula to heal from loss and pain -- whether it be through death, a broken heart, or thwarted ambitions.
What I do know is that it's important to admit our brokenness and not be afraid of what this does. Healing can only come from a deep sense of inner truth. One that says, "I hurt" and "I'm vulnerable."
In admitting these things, it is then possible to surrender. To throw our arms up to the heavens and sob like a baby.
Don't hide away from what is happening. Don't medicate with a false sense of strength that will eventually kill our most beautiful parts.
---
I've been asked many times by my friends who haven't experienced any significant deaths yet, how I do it. How do I keep my chin up? How do I not stay shattered?
My answer is this... I will always be shattered. The best thing you can do is be both shattered and brave. In the realest way possible, acknowledge the loss and allow the love you received from that person to live within your heart. Shout out to the heavens if you need to. Ask why. Be upset -- then quickly forgive. Don't be afraid to be vulnerable and admit that you are shattered too.
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Every time I visit my hometown, I stop by and visit my mom and dad at the cemetery. Sometimes as I'm sitting in front of their shared headstone, I secretly hope I'll get some sort of message from beyond. One that will help me be a little less shattered or help me understand where I need to go from here.
Usually I don't notice anything significant. I walk back to my car with tears in my eyes knowing that I've got to keep balancing surrender and the push forward.
I'm learning to embrace myself just as my mom use to -- but now from the inside out. When I was a baby entering the world frightened, she was there to hold me, but now I've got to learn to soothe myself and sometimes even ask to be soothed by someone else.
Sometimes I want to push love and support offered by others away -- maybe out of fear they'll wander away too or that I'm appearing too weak. My lesson there is to open my heart and let others in. Quit saying I'm fine when I need a hug.
Being shattered isn't a horrible thing. Actually, I've heard it "lets the light in." If we're brave enough, we can embrace that light and become real, authentic, and brave in the most honest way possible.
Are Your ‘Mental Frequencies’ Ruining Your Life?
The process of being a human being is not easy for anyone.
When you get down to the bottom of it all, a soul (which was once formless and ever expansive) is placed into the constraints of a human body. Each of us is pushed from the comfort of the womb out into the world — where we are instantly asked to trust.
To trust that the human beings we’ve been assigned to (our parents) are going to nurture, love, and provide for us. This is a frightening prospect, as we’re surrounded by strangers after being born. This is why most of us cry our eyes out when we’re born. It’s a shock to the system!
Inevitably, our imperfect parents/caretakers (who usually try their hardest) impact us with their words and actions. Whether positive or negative, their thoughts creep into our understanding of the world and we begin to reap the consequences of our thought patterns.
While one child is taught that they are beautiful and can accomplish anything, another is told he or she is worthless and will never amount to anything. And inevitably, a child grows to believe many of the things they are told.
We all create narratives (stories) that shape our lives. This is where our “frequencies” are created and maintained.
What Is a Frequency?
According to author Paul Selig, a frequency is the energy that surrounds a particular belief that you have. There are both high and low frequencies. When you’re operating from a healthy thought pattern, you’re surrounded by high frequencies, and the opposite is true when you’re operating from an unhealthy thought pattern.
For example, say you’ve entered a new relationship and everything is magical. Your endorphins are charged, and you feel as though you can take on the world. This high lasts for a while, but then reality sets in… you realize you are falling in love and you become afraid.
Your fear pushes you to begin doubting and fearing that you’ll lose what you’ve found. Before you know it, you’re doing things to push love away. You are driven by a low frequency that will inevitably lead to the destruction of your new relationship or to drive it into an unhealthy space.
Likewise, a low frequency could lead you to fall in love with the wrong person. Your limited sense of self and fear of being alone leads you astray. One day, you wake up realizing that you’ve completely lost yourself and don’t know how to make a much needed change.
The frequencies in our lives affect everything — our ability to succeed at work, innovation, creativity, health, and love.
They can either weigh us down or give us wings.
How to Adjust from Low to High Frequency Living
This is where things get exciting!
The first step to making any change is REALIZATION. If you KNOW and ADMIT you’re operating from a place of fear, you can begin to make adjustments.
One day, you may wake up and decide you’re ready to be free. You may realize that the only person holding you captive is yourself. You are the only being on this planet that can make you happy. You are the only person who can bring your creativity to life. You are the only person who can make you loving. You are the only person who can make the changes you need to thrive.
I was recently talking with a friend who suggested that “WHEN” she found the right love, she would finally feel as though she was supported enough to follow her dreams. Her life is a constant search for her other “HALF” to arrive and save her.
And who can blame her? From the time she was a child, she heard all sorts of stories about her “prince” coming to save her. One day her prince would come and wipe all of her tears and fears away.
There is nothing wrong with wanting her other-half to arrive (it’s a beautiful thing!), but what happens if her true love arrives and one day she wakes up to the realization that she didn’t do the work she needed to do — that her conditioning and past experiences in life are driving her into the same misery she felt when she was alone.
The secret to my friend’s success, according to Selig’s frequency theory, is to fall in love with herself first. This will only happen when she fully analyzes her past, how she has been conditioned, and where she wants to go in life.
Living from a high frequency means that we shift our minds and adopt the following train of thought:
I am now choosing to live in accordance with my higher knowing. I am now choosing to liberate myself from any low-level frequencies that I may have attracted or I may have created through my fear, through my trauma, or through any interactions that I have had that may have brought this into manifestation. I am Word through this intention to stand in my freedom.” – Paul Selig
Freedom is an active choice — in each moment.
No circumstance exists without our choosing. No frequency exists without our allowing it to be.
Making a change may mean letting go of a job, a relationship, or a way of being.
“You are free at a moment’s notice to give up an attachment to a negative frequency in any day or night. You are the one in charge of your knowing regardless of what you think through mandates that you have accepted to be true because you were not able to see outside the box,” further writes Selig.
The question remains, how free do you want to become? How positive do you want to be?
When you make the conscious choice to live a high frequency existence, things will change. You will smile more. Most importantly, you’ll be free.
WATCH: Mary Oliver Reads "Wild Geese"
Enjoy a beautiful poem by a truly amazing and beautiful woman:
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
For a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about your despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting --
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.