If This Were My Last Day on Earth I'd...

The days we live

just skip on by

as we think about
what could be

what should have been

or what may one day be.

All this thinking

and planning

plodding

just seems to cloud the mind

depress the soul

inspire more couch sitting

staring at walls

grinding of teeth.

But what if this were your last day on earth?

What would you do?

There are some who would probably fret until they fell to the ground...

Others who would grab onto their loved ones and hold on tight...

Some who would do that one thing they wanted to do for the past 20 years...

I've thought hard about what I'd do,

about the moments I've felt most alive...

Visions of me long ago

gliding along on a jet ski on a desert lake

permeate my mind...

my hair blowing in the wind

face warmed by the summer sun

and me singing a song

that only my heart could hear.

This is when I felt most alive...and free...

I wonder sometimes why we bind ourselves?

Why we sit and ponder our dreams,

yet punish ourselves

for

wanting something more.

If this were the last day on earth....

I think I'd inspire all who I love

to come with me and journey to my warm and sunny desert lake

and there we'd laugh and play,

listen to a bit of Beach Boys and Frank Sinatra

while enjoying the feel of warm water,

a desert breeze

and the smell of sage baking in the sun.

When I was a kid,

We'd spend amazing days on the lake...

and when it came time to leave my heart would ache...

I'd wish that if only the car would break

then we'd be forced to stay

and just play...

If it were my last day on earth...

that's it...I'd just play.

And smile...

Maybe even laugh

Sing

and swim until the sun dipped

behind the sandy, cactus covered hills...

Then I'd feel amazingly free...

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What about you...what would you do?

- Jen Engevik